It’s been two months since that fateful day. The day that I started full of hope for that week. I had it all planned out….not of big things but just normal everyday things. I was feeling hopeful and ready to take on summer.
Then a giant storm that seemed to appear out of nowhere quickly produced a giant devastating tornado that tried to crush that hope. It didn’t work but the events of the days since then have started to take a toll on me…physically, emotionally, spiritually. I feel like I’m losing hope.
Let’s reflect on those events (please know that this is more of a therapy for me than me trying to vent):
- An F5 tornado ripped through our town and left us homeless
- Tensley fell off of an exercise trampoline that resulted in 2 x-rays to check for fractures
- Both girls got sick.
- Once the girls started getting better, I got sick…for 3 weeks.
- A second devastating storm came through thankfully missing us but still did damage and delayed our move to the apartment.
- Both girls got lice.
- My car died while I was sitting at a stoplight. Cause, unknown
- Our builder backed out and now we are looking for a new builder to rebuild our house (there are no hard feelings with the first builder)
- Tillie gets a virus
- The speedometer on my car decided to freak out and said I was going 115 while I was on the highway.
I’m to the point where I am just waiting for the next bad thing to happen. I know, pretty sad huh? I’m really, really trying to stay positive but I have moments when I’m in the shower or in the car by myself where I just start crying.
I am worn and weary. My faith may waver from time to time but it will not be broken.
I’m trying to focus on the positive things. It doesn’t seem like there’s much but there are positives.
- My family is alive and well.
- Thankfully we had insurance and will be basically getting a new house.
- Tensley did not have any fractures.
- There have been many wonderful people who have helped us during this difficult time.
- It seems that the lice are GONE!
- I’ve had a little bit of time to work on creative stuff (I even had the opportunity to do a little photo shoot for one of my favorite families)….this is my happy place.
- The girls turned 2 and are becoming so much fun!
- I have good friends that let me vent and are encouraging and give me hope.
- I know God has big things planned for me and my family. I don’t know what they are right now but I know for a fact that all these trials I’m going through? Good things will come from them. God has promised us that….not just for me but for all of us who believe in Him.
I want to thank everyone who has prayed and continues to pray for us. I can’t even tell you how much we appreciate them.
